I was in elementary school when I was first introduced to the concept of “charisma.” I immediately decided that if I was going to get anywhere in life, I needed to figure out how to acquire this intangible and invaluable characteristic.
Because it was the “Madeline” movie that introduced me to charisma, I think I subconsciously attributed it with “adventure.” From that point on I found myself meeting really interesting people, getting into trouble, experiencing life, checking boxes. Now that I’m 24, I’m unsure if charisma is an actual thing, but I’m grateful for the concept because it’s driven me towards living a full life of always saying “yes.”
The other part of living a life filled with revelry, though, is the chaos. Sometimes I find my life is so full I’m completely overwhelmed. Life what the actual eff am I doing and where do I go from here? How do I decide what I want and how do I prevent myself from messing this all up?
I suppose that’s the definition of anxiety. Something that everyone I know struggles with.
While lamenting over current chaos in my life with my childhood best friend, she reminded me to “trust the process.”
Trust the process.
Sit back, give up your fight for control, live, love, and say “thank you.” Because you’re on the track to something. You have no clue what the potential is.. So why even try to control it.
Because as I sit here and think about everything I have, I feel overwhelmingly blessed. Trying to figure out what’s coming is pointless.
I have no control over work, life, relationships – platonic and otherwise. I just have to sit back and enjoy the process.
Categories: Musings & Epiphanies